♥ I can't imagine me without you .

Few days didn’t blog; well lazy monster has struck me… so many things to say but didn’t know where to start… I worked IC4 on my last day in Beach Station. My heart was kinda heavy though as I stepped in Sentosa Station. Dunno why…but Its not a nice feeling definitely. Walking thru the runway towards the pantry, I just felt tt like Im being watched. Couldnt give a damn, I ran to the restroom as fast as I could. Changed and then went to Burger King with Shanaz to buy ma lunch. Fast forward, I was stucked in SOS ticketing & how I wish Weixiang could take over me…Haiz he was late coz he couldn’t come out of his house as his house key with me :x Eh, not my fault ah, He put it in my bag….when we go clubbing the nite before. There I was stucked and was pissed with so many guests, sometimes I wonder, are they born retarded? Asking one simple ques in ten diff ways?? Damn~!!! Oh after being pissed, I served a cute guy.Omg, his eyes was damn nice, can? Like those mix blood de...I got sot tio lah what else.. There I was smiling and smiling, shit, I guess he noticed it and he actually compliment that he loves my eyes colors...I’m shy what else...kekekeke Then came a man beside him, calling him darling. I was still smiling…but in my heart, Fugged...He’s gay…damn it~!!! So wasted lah, He was damn good looking… All cute guys gay meh???….No~!!!!!!!!
Fast forward, its home sweet home time… I was kinda having mix feelings. I looked around the station reminiscing the days Vincent & me build it up with all our efforts, the days I had so much fun with all the earlier batch of hres and the moment of truth has finally arrived. My tears were at the verge of falling but I tried my very best not to show it. Maybe it’s a good thing to know the truth, maybe it’s a good thing to show me where my weaknesses are. I will not be soft hearted again & taken for a ride. Be strong Irin, Life has to move on. After today, I’ll embark a new beginning of my new journey. Ive been transferred to Info & Membership. I will set my heart and focus till I see the result that I want...Jia yo Irin…Aza aza fighting~!!!

Bitter sweet memories, tt is all Im bringing with me..so goodbye..my station, my dearest people..esp you faggot,weixiang..hahaha i may consider bringing you along.. :x thank you for all the good times.. I will mish you guys.

Im still trouble by this feeling… If you’re not the one then why am I crying on my bed?If you’re not the one then why does your name resound in my head?‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today‘Cause I miss you, whether it’s wrong or right and though I can’t be with you,You know my heart is by your side. I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understandIf I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?... Irin so emo…emo, emo, and more emo.. I seems to have fate with gay guyfriends..I dun understand why…but I treasure their friendship a lot coz they are the onez whom I can relate most about my feelings and they understand me better than my girlfriends do. My elder sis don’t really like them coz she keep on emphasizing that its all their fault that they walk the path they are now but what she doesn’t understand is that it’s the surrounding that trigger that factor in them. I do not believe that they are born to be heshe for I firmly believe that God is good. He created Adam & Eve not Adeve. Its never they are born this way..I remember how one of my guy friend tormented himself. Because his long distance girlfriend dumped him..He went clubbing alt days and in the end he end up with a guy who willing to love him for who he is.. Haiz..wasted coz hes good looking. I would have fall in love with him if he is straight but I already regard him as a sister… too bad then.. I just have this to say..remember where you come from..God made you with a d*** so make full use of it and stop using it on guys~!!! For goodness sake..its never too late to turn back.. oops I losing my refine side again...
Enough of all this… Im gonna focus on my new journey and turn it to a prestige place to work on…with guys in this time.. =))

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

7:24 PM

Oh,,,Yawnz... just work up after my peaceful sleep... Its only like 1 hour plus before I start to prepare for work..So Im gonna post a fast one...

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Working morning, waited for the cab and guess what I gotta squeezzzzeee my way in coz there are 4 people altogether..*phew* I was damn seh...tired and sleepy..reached work then we headed to mcd for breakfast with Shanaz,Kwanying and who else, Weixiang.I was damn crapy lah today...not enuf sleep...as usual talking nonsense...then headed to Beach Station.At Beach Station, Weixiang & me find things to do coz if not it will be a null sleepy day... so we decided to cleaned the back of house...

Someone started cleaning...

And cleaning happily...

End result....

Nex undertaking task...

Finding his way out...

Finally result seen...look at the no of rubber bands on his left hand..its a new way of trend setter..

Oh well of coz, he wouldnt be called Weixiang for nuthing... High Class Cleaner. but...one thing in particular...the girl who marry him gotta move in the office with him coz only the office he works in super clean not his house =X So extreemez.. Hahahaaz..

But then again, aint Im lucky..all I have to do is watch...no need to clean except tt in info booth I sweat my way thru in cleaning...damn tt place is a mess...Lucky I have Weixiang,Eric & Evelyn cleaning with me... =X

Din see him today...sadded...waiting & waiting & more of waiting.... I dun like... =(

Did two super sexuallity video at work titled GANGBANG.... Mhuahahaha...idiot tried to upload in here cannot load...wtf???? Tt video rockz...especially Shuba & Hafiz and Weixiang the lead actors & actress.. me??? Im the director,producer and laughter.. =)) I will find ways to upload it here... Especially tt someone..he just loved...being gangbang till rot...mhuahahaha... oopz...Im losing my refine side...

Cant wait to go home...and guess what??? It was raining cats and dogs... still waiting for my dad to fetch me but in the end he cant make it coz got meeting...damn...I waited for nuthing...so in the end waited for Weixiang and went home with him...Slept in the bus...I can see the flashes of lightning...its makes me shivered...so I listen to gospel songs while on the way home... Lord, Ive left you at my door steps... Reached home, I went str8 to lalaland...

Home sWeet Home....

Wonderful lala land....

I dun wanna wake up....

But no...Ive to prepare for work...

Till then,This is IrN signing off... Sweet lala nitez...eeerrmmzz...morning.. =))

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

11:39 AM

Sinful tuesday...yeah. I went on a shopping spree right before my payday and few hundreds poorer ( It dosent include my $400 taka vouchers) =X Haiz...must learn to control myself and not splurge on pretty things..

First stop went to meet my peepz in Orchard and we headed down to Wisma den to Taka. I bought an evening bag ( for my mum wedding ) pretty bling bling with a pinch of glamor, a pair of stilatoes ( I hope I spelt it rite ) & finally accessories to go along with my evening dress.I used up my $400 vouchers already on these..*garps*

Then we headed down to Suntec City to meet my aiai coz he just finished work and join us for dinner. So we ended up eating in Crystal Jade coz I insisted on having a proper dinner and I noe its very cina to eat there and Nikki, Flora & Jas were pretty westernized who loves continental foodz...But what the heck... Im hungry. So we had a proper dinner and then aiai suggested to go Kbox for singing therapy. I was huh?? I know K box was located just upstairs but Im kinda not in the mood leh..So in the end, we went to Clarke Quay with all my shopping bags ( Of coz aiai carried for me ) and went to meet his other friends at MOS. It was not crowded as usual what day is it today, Sinful Tuesday. I nearly forgot Im working IC1 tomorrow gosh here I am at 10 plus still outside...So I told aiai that I need to go home early coz need to work morning tomorrow, he was like wah lao...spoiler..eh eh..I never expect to go to MOS lorx...my fault huh?? But in the end he soo sweet sent me home coz he drive and then went back to MOS to continue with nikki they all... Im gonna misshh them coz with my working schedule I will hardly see them around.

So here I am just reached home, dun think I will be sleeping coz Im afraid I will over short 4am then Ill be dead.

Nikki just smsed me saying that she felt aiai is in love with me...I laughing out loudly..Come on, I knew that all along he has something towards me but I felt nothing for him and I also know that Nikki is in love with aiai so it explains more.. Dun worry nikki, I will not take him away from you. We are good friends and we will remain that way..I will keep on pushing him to you... =))

Just two hours away before I start to prepare for work le...

I miss him.

How I wish he knew that im missing him....

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

10:03 AM

Well, as I promised earlier, I will do a romantic compatibility on you shanaz…so here it is…

Scorpio & Libra

These two are very compatible due to their similar needs in a love relationship: Libra is the Sign of Partnership, and Libra is happiest when in a well-balanced and intimate relationship, while Scorpio thrives on emotional and sexual intimacy with their mate. These two Signs can make a very loyal, close and satisfying partnership.
These two would do well to undertake some sort of project together aside from their love relationship, as they have great potential to get great things done. They combine the power of emotion with the power of intellect, an extremely formidable duo. Scorpio tends to be more patient, but is also more controlling than Libra. Despite any differences, both partners love risk and taking chances; this is not a boring relationship! These two are real charmers; they know how to woo and seduce one another and take great pleasure in doing so. Their different styles -- Scorpio is intense and secretive while Libra is upfront and open -- sometimes make them have trouble understanding one another, so they may need to pay close attention to their communication at times.
What's the best aspect of the Libra-Scorpio relationship? The power they find in unity. They can accomplish a lot, whether they come together for a cause in the business or romantic sphere. They are both winners and they won't give up, making theirs a relationship that takes care of business.

Damn…sounds good for you shanaz… I hate you. Mhuahahahaa…
Well, I dun even know when hes (My Ahem) born how much more his zodiac sign… Haiz.. Wish you all the best of luck with him…

Okok…enough about shanaz….

Preparing to go out soon….. Heading out to town…

I still have $400 takashimaya vouchers…

Its retail therapy……

Update soon..gtg..

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

2:13 AM

Gosh....Thanks shanaz...I love you so muchie... If not for you, I wouldnt have talk to him....I finally did. Ooohhh well, I had to accompany her on the platform to see her *Ahem* but turn out...she never get to see him coz dunno where the hell he went. So we were crapping and laughing loudly and I just turn back to see whos coming up on the escalator, Boy guess who I saw? HIM~!!!! omg~!!!! I was stunned. There I was with a stunning face, controlling my laffter all I could think of was to smile. Keep on smiling,Irin... =)) Youre doing just fine. Theres no way for me to run and hide...anyway. He smiled at me back and covered his face as usual saying.." Haiz, Im invisible" I wanna slap him can? If he invisible, hey I will not smile at him wor... so ridiculous. Damn, then I just dunno what to say to him and I tot hes gonna join the queue so I step back but....he did not. There he stood near the escalator waiting for me to walk over. So I walk over...and we start chatting....With my heart thumping moments, I just damn dunno what to talk. For once I had a clear look at him... I just felt... why is my heart so heavy? He looked damn shag. Oh poor thing... he worked from morning to night... I can understand. I can see he super tired in his eyes.. then my hp rang...damn spoiler... I cut short the phone conversation and hung up. Then we about to continue talking....now his turn, his hp rang... I was sian 1/2. Stupid or what????? Can let us talk longer not???? AaaArrggghhhhh..... While he was talking on the phone I saw the guys that I noe of....so I chat with them...then when hes done with his hp conversation I talk to him back...Damn, asked me when the train will come..hello??? like Im controlling the train like dat...hurhur.. so eventually when the train came...Im kinda sad coz the time spent was short...ok lah not realli that short...coz 1 train did a detrain... But I really didnt wanna him to go....I notice something while Im talking to the other guys...He looked at me as if like eh what the heck flirting with other guys...you noe that kind of looks...I like. Maybe Im sensitive...but I like dat look. Hhahaha... Dun blame me, Im just super friendly.. After so long...tonite I get to talk to him...Phew.. thanks Shanaz. I think Im fated lah...kekekekeke

Shanaz cannot sleep properly tonite lah I guess....coz she did something bold and courageous to Ahem. And he boldly did something to her as well lah...I will not relate the story. No...I think she WILL sleep soundly tonite.Hmmpz...

I keep telling myself no leh I dun like him...But I lied. Ok....I like him, can??? Liking someone doesn't have to posses him but just by seeing him and knowing that hes near...that's all I asked for. For I guess he this kind of guy will have alot of admirers... I dun like to fight...I will just enjoy the moment till a better one run along.... =))

Gosh, finally tomorrow my off day..Having a few plans..... see how it goes.

Today sabi bdae....Happie bday~!!!!!

Yawnz...I wanna go koonz le...

Nitez.

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

12:12 PM

Im freaking tired...Just came back from work. After having my showered, I just cant sleep. Damn... Well, I have a few incidents to comment...from uncontrollable laughter to pissing my ass off....

1. *Served this cute guest when Im in SOS Ticketing...
Me: Hi Good Evening............. =)
Lady: Hi, 2 big 2 small pls....
Me: Huh? * Blurling face... *
Lady: Oh 2 adult 2 kids..
Me: Oh... smiling....controlling my laughter..
I was damn thinking what the hell is she talking about?
Buying 4D izzit? I tried to remain cool...
But in the end I laff like crazy with weixiang.. =))

2. * Oh someone today damn cute... sold tickets but only give guest receipt...summore can asked me " Eh, wheres the ticket,huh? " I was like der????? You sold it or I sold it huh??? In the end he only then realized that he did not gave it to the guest.... wth??? Of coz, being Irin...I laff like crazy lah... DER.

3. * Some idiots pissed me off, Fugged lah..last day big fugged huh?? So what from Luge? Farking attitude not happi can take bus!!! No pass means no admission but if he were to speak to me nicely I might just let him go on account of Ahem.... but NO... He fugging show me attitude wanna fight like that..So I told him to buy $3 ticket. He buey song call Tiong come and talk to me..What the heck lah... so I confront Tiong on dat BASTARD's attitude...I super buey song lah... so I dun let him in. In the end, Tiong apologized to me and I let dat fugging idiot go. Still... dat idiot not happy de..stared at me with 2 BIG WIDE EYES.... I stared at him back. fUGGING SMALL FRY GO EAT SHIT LAH...GOD BLESS YOU~!!!!!! Asshole~!!!! *spolit my nite~!!!*

Last but not least a classic scenario....

4. * two or three guest were served by someone... Hafiz told me that the guest wanna but around 40 over tickets...So I kan chiong wanna sell back up tickets, dat someone pulled me back until I drop on the floor dirtied my pants and refuse to allow me to sell back up. Damn...so I relax lah...since he wanna print from the TSM so be it...then the guest calculate from 50 dunno what then finalli he said " I wanna ten tickets" I had my laughter out loudly... Dat poor someone face sadded...got cheated his feelings... Mhuahahahahaahahahahahaahahahahaahaha damn classic. You haf to be there to experience the senario... =))

Dat someone if you wanna know who....lol....He knows who he is...always following my shift... :X
And stop calling me BOSS, you faggot....I slap you wait~!!!! If im a boss I wont be working in stupid sentosa.....

I guess I had a few complaints today...but what the heck... I guess my days are numbered.... Im counting down....

I dint bathe at work today....not so sticky liao mah...and yesh....I scared...kekekekeke...

Tomorrow got new guy....doing rover last shift with me.... Nice name..Ryan...I like.....the name I mean...hurhur...

He still msg and call me...though...I cant be bothered... break lah... I dun care.. He can fugged off... I never regard him as my boyfriend in the first place anymore...I dun need him in my life.... =)) Irin has grown up...lalalalalala

* mission of searching dat someone still on *

When is my bonus coming??????????? I still waiting.............anxiously.

Finally, adrian decided to talk to me. Why no more together cannot be friends issit? childish. Started talking about our last time dreamzzzzzzz.....fugged lah, my dream has achieved dat is to dump you. ...for keeping me hanging in the air dunno to let go or continue... So dun talk to me about what stupid dreamz...Yawnzz..

Jackson said " Irin, in this world no love story lah...wake up lah...you in lalaland too long liao lah... " I refused to admit defeat. I prove him wrong that I will somehow fall in love once again with someone who will love me for who I am.... Ive been hurt... Love is an excuse to be hurt.. do I dare to fall in love again??? time will tell once my heart heals.

My prince...where are you....drop in the drain mah???? Heez.

=))

Tomorrow also IC4.

Another war awaiting....

Im draining....

No energy.

Zzzzz........ Nite.

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

11:55 AM

I chance upon this while on net....check this out

A date with Leo
*To keep your Leo date happy, there had better be some drama in your evening. Leos are creative, romantic and dramatic, so take them out on the town in high-style. Your Leo date will love dressing up to the nines, and needs to have an engaging and social event to attend. Cultural events will be popular with the Lion in your life, as will gambling or anything exciting. The key to a successful date with a Leo is to make them feel like royalty*

~ Hmmz...I like... ~

Suggestions for the perfect date:
*go for a fancy meal, go to the theater or cabaret, go to the opera, go to a ball, attend a hip and high-society party, meet celebrities, go to the opening night of a wildly popular movie, see a world-class singer in concert, take a trip to a casino or play poker together, take a trip to the horse races, take a helicopter trip around the Grand Canyon, take a tour of a movie set or studio *
~ Hmmz..in reality none of the above..I love star-gazing, sitting by the beach and watch sunrise..old fashioned you may think..thats the way I am love it or hate it..~

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

9:32 AM

Here I am back again blogging. Preparing for my sleep soon coz I havent had my beauty sleep in the afternoon. Just wanna share my thoughts before I turn in....

Rainy day today, shiok, I nua and play my games non stop.

Planning to go dancing on the 27 of april but I guess on the 28 instead coz its a sat. Call some of the sentosa people along coz havent been hanging out together for quite sometime now.Time of coz at nite lah but vanue not confirm coz havent decide yet. Will update soon.

Oh, Devin sms me Yesterday...Cool. He wanna go home...lol. Im overjoyed to see his sms especially when Im stressed with SOS Ticketing.. Well, life bored without him around to entertain me. At Least he remembered me. =)

Jem jem sms me today coz I asked him to go dancing on the 28 so chat a little while. Pitied him, falling sick and just got his gun but he broke it the next day. Mhuahahaha..Being Jeremy, whats new man?

Well, two of my guys remembered me except for one. Guess too engross with his frog suit. Haiz. Im forgotten. Forget it. =(

Im beginning to hate beach station. Im beginning to not to care so much about it anymore. I dont even wanna answer the phonecalls at times. Things are not the same again. Irin's standard for beach station is dead. If I cant raise it, I will fugged it. Anyway, its not my beach station anymore.... Why bother so much about it? Let the rest do it....

Oh Ive found a PERSONAL ASSISTANT. Teo Weixiang. He will entertain me like devin used to do. His shift always same as mine summore, working with him makes me FAT. We havent been eating well since the SOS so everytime we ate junk foodz unless like yesterday Wen en so nice bought me fried rice so I shared with weixiang. And I swear, I will not share drink with him anymore...eeeeeeee....... I hate him for not telling me ( he knows what I meant ). Sux. Working with him, you will laff non stop especially with his down syndrome action whenever indians came to buy tix...racist!!! Oh you should see how he sweat... Omg..better run fast or he will purposely rub on you...yuckssssss!!!!! so you will be sticky too. Thankx. Hurhur. Enjoyed working with him..luckily he followed my shift if not...I guess Im bored to death.

Wen en, Mr nice guy always asking me what I wanna eat for dinner. Knowing SOS sure no time to eat. Hes nice not to me only lah but to everyone..Im damn paiseh, can? Everytime buy for me dun wanna take my money. Super paiseh lah...must treat him a good meal one day..

Yawnz...I think Ive wrote super long... my eyes closing already...till then this is Irin Chen signing off...nite nite..

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

7:54 AM

Ive deleted my friendster blog...well, basically due to high usage of friendster website, it keeps on loading but never get it done. So being Irin, Im pissed so I deleted it. So hence, this blog was born. My old blog..oh... I forgot the password so cant get in...Damn. There goes all my old post...

Well, well, well... its my off day today.. Finally. Been working like 8 days IC4 so freaking tired, heyz you can try it. Freaking sticky and damn shag at the end of the day. Damn... its no joke if you were to handle the songs of the seas ticketing, the guests damn irritating.... plus the stupid dispenser always jammed, i GUESS those fugging things can throw into the toilet bowl and flush.
-___- hummmpz.

Today, I eat, sleep and online. Havent been nuaing for so long..Its rainy day also..so it adds to my mood to stay at home.

Tomorrow working IC4 again...

I go and rest...update again later...

Tears Behind Her Smile <3

3:56 AM