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Irin Suzanne Chen Xue Qing.
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♥ Monday, April 30, 2007

Few days didn’t blog; well lazy monster has struck me… so many things to say but didn’t know where to start… I worked IC4 on my last day in Beach Station. My heart was kinda heavy though as I stepped in Sentosa Station. Dunno why…but Its not a nice feeling definitely. Walking thru the runway towards the pantry, I just felt tt like Im being watched. Couldnt give a damn, I ran to the restroom as fast as I could. Changed and then went to Burger King with Shanaz to buy ma lunch. Fast forward, I was stucked in SOS ticketing & how I wish Weixiang could take over me…Haiz he was late coz he couldn’t come out of his house as his house key with me :x Eh, not my fault ah, He put it in my bag….when we go clubbing the nite before. There I was stucked and was pissed with so many guests, sometimes I wonder, are they born retarded? Asking one simple ques in ten diff ways?? Damn~!!! Oh after being pissed, I served a cute guy.Omg, his eyes was damn nice, can? Like those mix blood de...I got sot tio lah what else.. There I was smiling and smiling, shit, I guess he noticed it and he actually compliment that he loves my eyes colors...I’m shy what else...kekekeke Then came a man beside him, calling him darling. I was still smiling…but in my heart, Fugged...He’s gay…damn it~!!! So wasted lah, He was damn good looking… All cute guys gay meh???….No~!!!!!!!!
Fast forward, its home sweet home time… I was kinda having mix feelings. I looked around the station reminiscing the days Vincent & me build it up with all our efforts, the days I had so much fun with all the earlier batch of hres and the moment of truth has finally arrived. My tears were at the verge of falling but I tried my very best not to show it. Maybe it’s a good thing to know the truth, maybe it’s a good thing to show me where my weaknesses are. I will not be soft hearted again & taken for a ride. Be strong Irin, Life has to move on. After today, I’ll embark a new beginning of my new journey. Ive been transferred to Info & Membership. I will set my heart and focus till I see the result that I want...Jia yo Irin…Aza aza fighting~!!!

Bitter sweet memories, tt is all Im bringing with me..so goodbye..my station, my dearest people..esp you faggot,weixiang..hahaha i may consider bringing you along.. :x thank you for all the good times.. I will mish you guys.

Im still trouble by this feeling… If you’re not the one then why am I crying on my bed?If you’re not the one then why does your name resound in my head?‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today‘Cause I miss you, whether it’s wrong or right and though I can’t be with you,You know my heart is by your side. I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understandIf I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?... Irin so emo…emo, emo, and more emo.. I seems to have fate with gay guyfriends..I dun understand why…but I treasure their friendship a lot coz they are the onez whom I can relate most about my feelings and they understand me better than my girlfriends do. My elder sis don’t really like them coz she keep on emphasizing that its all their fault that they walk the path they are now but what she doesn’t understand is that it’s the surrounding that trigger that factor in them. I do not believe that they are born to be heshe for I firmly believe that God is good. He created Adam & Eve not Adeve. Its never they are born this way..I remember how one of my guy friend tormented himself. Because his long distance girlfriend dumped him..He went clubbing alt days and in the end he end up with a guy who willing to love him for who he is.. Haiz..wasted coz hes good looking. I would have fall in love with him if he is straight but I already regard him as a sister… too bad then.. I just have this to say..remember where you come from..God made you with a d*** so make full use of it and stop using it on guys~!!! For goodness sake..its never too late to turn back.. oops I losing my refine side again...
Enough of all this… Im gonna focus on my new journey and turn it to a prestige place to work on…with guys in this time.. =))




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

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