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♥ Imagine Me Without You .


♥ Love Me Or Hate Me





Irin Suzanne Chen Xue Qing.
Laughter Freakz
Ask me and you shall receive
(:


♥ Connections



WX.vier
WenEn
Alv!N
Will add da list soon....
♥ The Past



April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007


♥ She wishes for



Love, Love, Love ((:
More $$$$$$$$$ so tt I can travel more


♥ Tag Me~!!!







♥ Credits



♥ Thursday, May 31, 2007

Yeah...Im damn frustated with all the indian nationalities...omg~ asking the same damn thing all over again..wtf~ my temper blew to the max...Im unpredictable...


Hah... I called him again today for free luge...my darling cuzz came back from canada and so I asked her to look for him ...kekekekeke... Ans the phone still wanna act cool...
Him: wat? apa? *busy background*
Me:(thinking in my heart ~nabeh so rude for wat~ )Errmz... hey, my sis is here can let her play 2 free ride???
Him: Wer are you today? ok just ask her to come find me lor...
Me: Me in beach now...why?? okok will let her know...
Him: Just asking... okok...
Me: Oklah...orh...byeeeeeeeee *Smiling widely*
Him:Bye....

Hhah.....My heart in excitement.... jumping like dancing the hip hop tempo...omg...unbelievable...I actually call him again...Maybe tml go play luge again.... kekekekekekkeke... Im begining not to feel shy...haha...

Going to the Scream party tml... woooooo....

Oh... my ex darlz hres came back...one after another I rub their hair...freaking sharp like duriannnn.... Oh finally, someone came back to say hi...whatever...

Still in Sentosa stn waiting for him to come out of the train...every train appear...Im waiting anxiously.... but hes not there.... maybe his parents fetch him back... Sianzsation.

Oh we went to play luge yesterday with shuba...omg...shuba said that he talk to me very shy...hahahahaha.... I just like it...seeing him in dat orange tee... I got 3 foc ride...but he like to make me angry....why.... can someone tell me......???????? but I like...hah.


Im madly into him now.... shit, will I ever wake up and move on.....??

**Irin Suzanne praying hard for a miracle....**




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

9:12 AM

♥ Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see? That's the way I feel about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin' down the road you should be takingI should know'
Cause I loved and lost the day I let you go
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away
Though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me
I saw him....hahahaha with joanne, my mission possible assistant. Though only for a short period..Im kinda happy...no..extremely happy... I can sleep well tonite :))
During meeting I had a very bad feeling.... Im gonna be bombard with regards to Wxavier's transfer. True enough... It happens... I just dun feel like explaining myself what I feel... and Sess regard it as favourism wtf... I thought we have closed the case but I was wrong...all the sups wanna save their own asss only. Maybe its my fault too... It will not be a next time.
-________________- Hmmpz.. I felt like my reputation drown in the sea. I suddenly lose my motivation to work....
Im browsing at the resort world webby.....faster lah....Im waiting to move over....
Finally ....Off tml.... what shall I do?? Hmmz...




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

8:11 AM

♥ Friday, May 25, 2007

Wooo hoo...sooon..$$$$ WILL BE IN MY BANK...THIS TIME BIG FAT BANK...LOL... the time Ive been waiting finally arrived... =))


Ryan2 called me after soooo long... Omg...Ive lost contact with him like....1 yr plus?? Great to have him back...All thanks to Ahem...lol... Im reunited with him... I MISS THE OLD GOOD DAYS we drive around singapore like mad... My powerful kaki in counter swaning..damn ryan2..I miss you like crazy.


Someone says Im a freaking flirt... WTF~!!! never die before... Its socialable...haiz~ cant even see the huge difference... But come to think of it, I guess its plain jealousy.....

Fugged..

Watever..




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

7:04 AM

♥ Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Like I said before, there will be sunshine after the rain.... Its true indeed.

i)I got my pay raise today...more than I expected. Hallelujah~!!!!

ii)I got the free tickets for two to the scream party at Cafe Del Mar...Its on 1 June 2007 at 7pm..Im gonna change my schedule...Woo hoo...Thinking who I should bring... Hmmzzzz..

I finally saw him yesterday...OMG... We chatted, though just for a short while..Im contented. They wipe away tears that I cryThe good and the bad times We’ve been through them all You make me rise when I fall ...'Cuz every time we touch, I get this feeling, I swear I could fly, Can't you feel my heart beat fast....Forgive me my weakness but I don’t know why Without you seeing you it’s hard to survive.... for my days to go by.

I was kinda crazy today.... staying back till 1245 to finish the schedule....Dun give a damn... Im enjoying my leave tml...whole day.

Yawnz..... Going home soon... Jia you...suzanne..finishing soooooooon.




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

8:52 AM

♥ Monday, May 21, 2007

Suzanne feeling down today....

Been crying endlessly...

Had a chat session with Vincent Yeo...Just chat about my work...Knowing tt Im not really enjoying my work..He can see the drastic change in me. Suddenly I just breakdown and cry in front of him.. It is so unglamour,can? But I dun give a damn..Ive been keeping inside me for quite sometime...

Thanx, wxavier for the chocolate...dats sooooooo sweet...really unexpected..really brightens up my day... =))

Finally, I cry it out loud....

Irin Suzanne is smiling behind her tears.




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

5:52 AM

♥ Saturday, May 19, 2007

Arggh...finally can rest at home...Gosh..what a feeling bout' having the whole house for myself. So much of peace.... without her nagginess. Im loving it. Sometimes I do wonder if I should ever move out on my own... but again, Ill miss her cooking... NAH~!!! Im staying put and I guess this earS of minE will be numb soon.... By her nagginess...

Spending the whole afternoon, sleeping, eating and watching tv... Im starting to feel like a lady of leisure... hahaha.. Still considering whether to meet up my friends for high tea session. Weather extreemely hot outside... =(

A wise man once said this to me... " Irin, dun get too affected. If he chose to forget, no point holding on to it. It will hurt you even more but not him. Do you think its worth it??" I pondered upon his words on my way back home the other day.... How silly can I be??? I guess its those sweet memories that keeps haunting me...as I didnt wanna let go...

To HIM - Thank you for all the wonderful times. Its time to say goodbye.
To the wise man - Thank you... Im blessed to have you around. =))
To my work - Im considering what is it in for me??? Im getting bored... Not challenging anymore.. I miss my Beach 2.
To my membership - You guys dont need me at all... Im invisible.. anyway.. wtf..
To my sentosa station - You have capable ICs to run..
To my sups - Not my cup of tea..
To my mgrs - Haiz, I dont know what to say.. Im much happier back at beach...with my beach 2.. Why transfer me??? Wrong move~!!!!
To the new HIM - I cant take my eyes on you... but are you worth it???
To Irin Suzanne - Its time to let go and move on. Time will heal everything...
To everyone out there - Heres a toast to a livelier, Bubblier, Happier ME~!!!!
CHEERS...




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

9:39 PM

♥ Friday, May 18, 2007

I know that they say That some things are better left unsaid. I used to think its always good to stay true to one person but I guess its not even worth mentioning it coz all you got is hurt in return. I may be strong in person... no ...I may look strong in person..but Im not. Im going into depression.... crying every nite on my bed...Thinking of him...I am so useless....trying my best to go on....

Irin trying to be strong emotionally.... bear with me... Im now a cry baby...

Too stressed with work....

Too stressed without him.....

Too stressed to even go on....

I need a shoulder to cry on........




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

6:37 AM

♥ Sunday, May 13, 2007

Haiz…Beach station been having so much problems ever since I left. No Show, MCs, Lateness…it’s been piling up. I asked myself, is it because the new Hres are not up to our standard? Or are we too strict and inflexible to even care? What’s happening? Why are these happenings? Where do we go wrong? Are the ICs not competent enough to manage the entire stations? Even Imbiah Station right now the Hres giving problems. Just by looking at the feedback book, I can feel how much hatred and frustration they are having. I can understand as we are really short of manpower to the max. We can have 2 staff running the whole of Beach station for half a day. Tell me how pathetic is that? So much of extension going on, so much of sadness going on. How can we resolve this? I really emphasize with all the hres on the extending of the hours but having said that we, ics do the same on extending our time too. Why is there so much of hatred and unhappiness going on out there? Im at my wits end... Coming to work isn’t like last time. I can see some of the hres dragging to work.. Though they are smiling and laughing.

Vincent Tay told me a joke of the day... LOL... how can I write it here? Its xxxx rated...lol.. hes gonna kill me...if he saw this...

We are going to eat prata at Jalan Kayu... with wen en, hafiz, su ann and him... =)) i THINK HES GOING ... lol..

I got caught flirting with a guest... damn. by norlin..what a sharp eyes she has.. But the guy was damn cute loh... lol... o.O

Its IRIN day today... OMG....




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

7:15 AM

♥ Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Lazy lazy lazy....Buzy Buzy Buzy...
Thats the way I am now...Too lazy to write down my thoughts...too busy to even update...
Eversince Im being transfered to Information & Membership...Busy trashing out things with islander dept and standardizing the operations..Arrgghhh...can I lie Im not stressed,can??

June roster killing me.......... Im trying my best to plan...But...those kukus...kept resigning.

God help me.

Nothing much to update though...No...its lazy to update...


Till my mood to update back again....




Tears Behind Her Smile <3

7:45 PM